It is overflowing with love, inspiration, fear, anxiety, and compassion. There are so many things that I am "processing" at this moment that I feel like my brain cannot keep up. So many things I want to do. So many things I want to say. And most of the time I am too afraid to do either.
I think its just a fear of failure in general.
But why? What has instilled this crippling feeling.
I am me. Right? I feel what I feel and say it. Right? No. Not usually. Unless how I feel or what I choose to believe goes along with the "norm" then I better keep it to myself. That alone is paralyzing.
I mean....I understand that there is a time and a place. There is such a thing as respecting others and knowing when to say something and when not to. But COME on! Theres so much pressure out there to feel a certain way and believe certain things that I found that I was unable to see the where the line of BS ended and where I began. I was losing me and Im not even sure if I had a fair shot at being me before I just took what everyone told me to say and feel as absolute.
Things are changing. I can feel it. I can see it. God has told me. And I have never been more excited and anxious in my life.
