she

is killin' me right now. So cute and animated and sweet and all that good stuff


and in the blink of eye everything can change and she can throw a horrific tantrum. Ruining any sort of good time or enjoyable trip that we are in the middle of. Stella has never reacted like this and I tend to feel like I am loosing my mind...LITERALLY! Please someone tell me this is just a phase! Maybe since she didn't really have the "terrible 2s" thing its transferred over to "terrible 3s"? But when its good its soooo good. I can only pray it doesn't last long and that I can remain calm in the mean time :) ahhhh motherhood



This weekend has been wonderful. Ryan and I both had it off so on saturday we went to breakfast and then off to Cabazon to do some shopping. I thought since the holidays had just ended that it wouldn't be busy...WRONG. Dead wrong. And I thought for sure that Ryan would want to leave immediately because he tends to hate people on a general level, its the cross he bears :). Anyways, he was such a trooper and we actually found some good stuff. Not necessarily at "outlet prices" but some good stuff nonetheless. One tantrum and a 3 hour nap, it was time to go to Charlies birthday dinner. So many people and friends it was rather enjoyable even being the last person to get my food.

Today we went to church, had lunch with the entire fisher crew (man we have alot of kids), hung out at Lauren and Kevins and then we met up with Carynn, Clay, and Babe to see Bedtime Stories with Adam Sandler. Not a bad flick. Went home and started dinner...please tell me how I set off the smoke alarms making a grilled cheese sandwich? Im so lame. 2 Jim Carrey movies and 2 and 1/2 tantrums later Stella and I ended the evening in my bed watching Mama Mia. She passed out like 10 minutes into it but I am still watching, its so good and it keeps me smiling the entire movie.

P.s. Lauren has inspired me today. She has such a big heart and love love loves her family. She is not content with being content and that takes work and strength. Wife to her love, mother of two, and friend to me I am honored to be in her life.

Carynn shows me on a daily basis that she loves me no matter what. Thats saying alot. Im no picnic :) I can only hope I do the same.

Kali can be trusted with absolutely everything. And her love for my kid is nothing short of beautiful.

Ryan. Probably the most selfless person I've ever met. Constantly making sure that I am okay and that I have everything I need and even want most of the time. I have found my hearts counterpart and even at this very moment that reality brings tears to my eyes.

Amanda although I dont see her as often as I would love to I feel like we have such a deep connection even when we dont speak. I love you deeply

Im blessed.